There's a lot to think about when starting up a blog, I am finding this out. I had to come up with a profile name, a name for my blog and a url name and I have to say I am quite pleased with all my decisions. I used Crazy a few times in my names because, well quite honestly I am known by my niece and nephew as crazy aunt Jill so I thought it was appropriate. Also our life is Crazy, we try to never have a dull moment in our house and Cancer has made it even Crazier! But what I really love and I feel like is really true to me is my url name, lovinglifenotlovingcancer.blogspot.com, hmm so true. Growing up and even now I can honestly say I love my life and the craziest thing about that, is it was not always easy growing up, lots of moves, with that came people problems (I hate bullies) lots of family issues and lots of crazy in my life. Then as an adult the crazy just kept coming with more family shit, but somehow I can honestly say I love my life. Maybe its because my grandma always told me that everyday is a new day, when you wake up and your feet hit the floor you put a smile on your face and make the best of it and that's what I do every single day! Are there little things I would change or make better yes of course but do I need more, not really. Well I would like to be skinnier!:) Oh and go on a shopping spree when I am skinny!:) But in all seriousness I do love pretty much everything about my life except that one Stupid thing, CANCER! I've tried to make sure I use my grandmas advice as I trudge through this shitty situation but sometimes its hard, I feel so sad and not happy that we have to go through this. Sad for myself and scared, sad for my babies but mostly sad for Angel. This part of life I don't love so much. Actually I f-ing hate it. It sucks ass and quite honestly I don't want to do it, why, why me? I'm feel like a child here, I can't go through this, not yet, I'm not mature enough for this. So see there you have it, the explanation for my url name....


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It seems like every time I turn around I'm seeing a new blog about this and that so I thought what the hell, Ill do one myself! I love to write and I love to talk about my feelings, kind of. It seems like there is never enough time to sit down and just visit with a friend and really let them know what we are going through. It is also just easy to ignore how we feel. But no longer, I will go forward laying it all out there for the world, or maybe just a few blog followers to hear, uh read I mean! Mostly you will find me talking about our crazy life, crazy because we never really stop, my kids are always a movin" I am always movin' but mostly complaining the whole time about how tired I am and crazy because my hubby has CANCER and that's just some CRAZY SHIT!!!